I have never felt so incredibly alone since I was a teenager.
You (understandably) left games / even Skype. That was the beginning.
Everyone else seemed to follow suit. Zach left the Skype group. Adam got busy with school. Frank went AWOL. Melisha is busy doing stuff in her life. God, I miss all of them. So much. Holidays are upon us, so I’m sure that has something to do with it, but this has been going on for the past two to three months. People just.. trickling away.
Aside from Skype, I don’t roleplay anymore. I’m not in that crowd. The new crowd I met in [vox] is too new for me to vent to. You know how that is. We’re friends, but not friends. Not yet. And my facebook ‘friends’ have dwindled due to divorce.
Was it something I said? Was it something I did? What the hell do I do?
I have been a great friend to everyone else who went through something hard, something difficult. I have stuck by. I have tried hard to console, to confront, to comfort them in their times of need.
I’m crying right now because.. Dammit, I am going through one of the hardest things in the world. Me. It’s my turn. Someone fucking take care of me. Someone fucking tell me it’s going to be okay. Someone fucking reply when I say a fucking greeting, even if it’s just to tell me ‘Hi, sorry I’m busy doing X I’ll talk to you when I can!”
I’m sorry. I shouldn’t curse at you. I’m not going it at you, really. Please know that. I’m just.. venting.
Help. Anyone. Please.