Dear Catie, S. O. S.

Everyone’s gone.

 

I have never felt so incredibly alone since I was a teenager.

 

You (understandably) left games / even Skype. That was the beginning.

 

Everyone else seemed to follow suit. Zach left the Skype group. Adam got busy with school. Frank went AWOL. Melisha is busy doing stuff in her life. God, I miss all of them. So much. Holidays are upon us, so I’m sure that has something to do with it, but this has been going on for the past two to three months. People just.. trickling away.

 

Aside from Skype, I don’t roleplay anymore. I’m not in that crowd. The new crowd I met in [vox]  is too new for me to vent to. You know how that is. We’re friends, but not friends. Not yet. And my facebook ‘friends’ have dwindled due to divorce.

 

Was it something I said? Was it something I did? What the hell do I do?

 

I have been a great friend to everyone else who went through something hard, something difficult. I have stuck by. I have tried hard to console, to confront, to comfort them in their times of need.

 

I’m crying right now because.. Dammit, I am going through one of the hardest things in the world. Me. It’s my turn. Someone fucking take care of me. Someone fucking tell me it’s going to be okay. Someone fucking reply when I say a fucking greeting, even if it’s just to tell me ‘Hi, sorry I’m busy doing X I’ll talk to you when I can!”

 

I’m sorry. I shouldn’t curse at you. I’m not going it at you, really. Please know that. I’m just.. venting.

 

Help. Anyone. Please.

 

S.O.S.

Miranda

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Dear Catie, The other night we opened up our ‘Quote Books’.

And I wanted to post a lot of mine. However, this one in particular will be upon your request where we posted the ones we did collectively with reader Adam.

Our Chat
 

Me: (Who is completely obsessed with relatable quotes)
“If you insist on measuring yourself, put the tape around your heart instead of your head.” – Mr. Rogers

“Even if you are on the right track, you will be run over if you just sit there.” -Anonymous

“If you don’t know where you’re going, how will you ever be able to recognize when you’ve arrived?” – Anonymous

“Oh, the lovely thinking! The beautiful thinking.” John Steinbeck from East of Eden

“One of the tragedies of real life is that there is no background music.” -Annie Proulx

“The smallest goal achieved stands taller than the greatest intention. Do whatever your heart leads you to do — but do it!” – Unknown

“Treat problems as opportunities to be creative. As a result, your life will be vastly enriched.” – Anonymous

“He that composes himself is wiser than he that composes books.” – Anonymous

“One day is worth two tomorrows.” – Anonymous

“If you would know the value of money, go and try to borrow some; he that goes a-borrowing goes a-sorrowing.” – Anonymous

“A little neglect may breed mischief; for want of a nail the shoe for the horse was lost; for want of a horse the rider was lost; for want of the rider the battle was lost.” – Anonymous

“Three may keep a secret if two of them are dead.” – Anonymous

“If a man empties his purse in to his head, no man can take it away from him. An investment in knowledge always pays the best interest.” – Anonymous

Adam: (Who is completely obsessed with American History / Presidents)
“We better hang together, because we will certainly hang seperately.” ~Ben Franklin

“Ask not what your country can do for you, but what you can do for your country,” ~ JFK

“It is certain that we will, when we will.” – St. Augustine

“Comformity is the jailor of freedom and the enemy of growth,” – JFK

“You have nothing to fear but fear itself,” – Franklin Delano Roosevelt

“In giving freedom to the slave, we assure freedom to the free,” – Abraham Lincoln

“I will fight no more, forever,” – Chief Joseph

“Speak softly, and carry a big stick,” ` Theodore Roosevelt

“Facts are the enemy of truth,” – Don Quixote

“It is to be remembered, too, that the affections of men generally turns towards power,” – Alexis de Tocqueville

Catie: (Who is uplifting when we need it)
“May Fear & Dread not conquer me.” -Buddha

“You don’t love because, you love despite, not for the virtues, but despite the faults.” – William Faulkner

“…A different plant grows from each kind of seed.” – 1 Cor. 15:38

“The sun has one kind of glory, while the moon and the stars each have another kind. And even the stars differ form each other in their glory.” – 1 Cor. 15:41

“Don’t blindly believe what I say. Don’t believe me because others convince you of my words. Don’t believe anything you see, read, or hear from others, whether of authority, religious teachers or texts. Don’t rely on logic alone, nor speculation. Don’t infer or be deceived by appearances.Do not give up your authority and follow blindly the will of others. This way will lead to only delusion. Find out for yourself what is truth, what is real. Discover that there are virtuous things and there are non-virtuous things. Once you have discovered for yourself give up the bad and embrace the good.” – Buddha

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” – Rumi

“Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass. It’s about learning how to dance in the rain…” – Vivian Greene

“It is good to take others into account but when you start letting other peoples feelings and emotions dictate your decisions you only hurt yourself.” – Catie Cappadonna

“Forget the former things; do not dwell in the past.” – Isaiah 43:18

“The limit to your abilities is where you place it.” – unknown

“When love is not madness, it is not love.” – Pedro Calderon

“Be bold enough to dream even if you have to take huge risks. Never Ever Settle for anything but the VERY Best.” – Catie Cappadonna